The holidays can be a hard time for so many, but why? Why do they need to be hard, when it's supposed to be such a joyful time? Are we simply overcomplicating things, or is there more to it? Something God's been working on in me is to be a more loving person and to do things out of love, not obligation. I had to stop and ask myself - was I posting on this blog out of love, or obligation? Was I running myself ragged in my personal life out of love or obligation?
Cutting my toxic family out of my life has been really hard. Frankly, it's one of the most difficult decisions I've ever had to make, and carrying through with it has been even more difficult. I can see the blessings that have come from it already, though. I can see how great this is going to be for me long term and I can already see how wonderful it's been for my children. They are healing and flourishing.
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Today, while I was laid low with a debilitating headache, so many things became clear to me as I opened my heart and cried out to God. Sometimes illness can be a blessing. It forces us to come to a complete stop and focus on what really matters - our relationship with Jesus. My life isn't great because I can write well or inspire others with my story. My life isn't great because my kids are awesome human beings. My life isn't great because I married the most handsome, sexiest man in the world. My life is great because Jesus is in every moment of it and He loves me beyond measure. My life is great because God is great. Why did I overcomplicate that by trying to add in so many things that I didn't have time for Him?
I can't tell you what to do, who to love, or how to heal. All I can do is point you to Jesus and share my own story. My ups and downs, faults and weaknesses, and strengths that come as a result of my belief in Jesus Christ and His sacrifice at Calvary. There is no love greater than Jesus' and no healing greater than that which comes from Him. What I can tell you is that I wish I had cut my toxic family out sooner. I wish I had spent more time in the Word with Jesus. I wish I had loved myself and others more and I wish I had focused more time on my children when they were little. There is never enough time in this life, so we have to make the most of it while we can. Life is too short to be overcomplicating our blessings.
The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace. Numbers 6:24-26 (ESV)
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